With my new years resolution of NO NEGATIVITY, I've been really taking Isaac's advice to heart with the "drop the vase" thing. Dropping a proverbial vase is actually soothing, although I would like to smash a real vase for effect and rage. With that said, I threw a proverbial vase out my car window yesterday as I sped to work 20 minutes late. It felt great! It also inspired me for a new project that I did remember to write and sketch out this time. Note to self: go to Unique and buy cheap dishes.
For some reason I still feel like there's tension between some people and I regarding the events that took place around finals. While it's a new year and that is technically "last year", I feel like it is in my best interest, for my sanity, that I stay away this coming semester. My first semester at Towson was amazing because I didn't come around the music building as often as I did this past semester. I was out of the loop and had to play catch up, but at least my work didn't suffer. I'm only on campus two days a week, but it's for a full day. I'm there from 9:00 AM to 6:15 PM, possibly later if I do decided to take more film photos and venture to the dark room. I am going to try to make an effort to come on Fridays so I can sit in on the open drawing sessions. I really do need more art in my life, especially when it involves live people. I'm getting rusty at figure drawing, so I have a full semester's worth of opportunity. I don't need any more negativity in my life, and I've spent a lifetime trying to boost myself with positive vibes. I got a phone call, a voicemail, and a facebook message form *him* earlier and he still doesn't get why I hate him so much. He said that if I had the heart, I should forgive him. Well let me reiterate: DON'T PISS A FILIPINO OFF. There is no forgiveness, unless you're family, after you ruin someone's name. Even then with family it takes months, even years until forgiveness is issued. As the saying goes, "How can you expect to help others when you can't help yourself?" I'm tired of babysitting and playing therapist to those who won't take my advice. And now people secretly hate me. It's just a crazy assumption, but whatever. Positive....positive...while I was driving down Shady Grove Rd to pick up mom from work, that Destiny's Child song, "Survivor," was on the radio. The line that goes
Soon comes happiness
If I surround my self with positive things
I'll gain prosperity"
I couldn't help but smile to myself. I used to listen to that song non stop back in middle school. It's a sure fired sign that I need to stay away. I kept threatening that this past semester, and people kept convincing me that they're not all bad, or that I should come back to visit one specific person. I need to practice self control and if I could avoid the music building for one semester in the past, I can do it again. Plus I've neglected my Towson friends, and I need to spend more time with them. Tom is coming this semester and I haven't really hung out with him since high school. We could occasionally run into each other at MC, but he would always be running to class and couldn't talk. He's an art major as well and decided on Towson after realizing that MICA is demanding your first born with a contract written and signed with blood. Katie, Jamie and Erin are up there, although I don't know if I'll be seeing much of Erin and Tom, and possibly Katie since I won't be in the CFA at all this semester. I'm sure I'll be hanging out with Jamie a lot since the majority of my schedule consists of me lounging around the psych building for my classes.
I should be getting to bed. I have a hardcore cold and I can't breathe through my nose at all. I have to get up for church, do laundry, and go to work.
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